Wednesday, February 9, 2011

you ever have one of those days?

you ever have one of those days you wish you could do all over again?
yesterday i did.
i don't want to share all my heart because there is some of it, i just want to let Him [GOD] see.
i've been pondering on the scripture in isaiah (i believe it's isaiah 26),where it says "You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you."
i've decided that if i would apply this verse to my marriage, there would be a different outcome than those days like yesterday.
where would i go if i didn't see Him at work in this thing called "marriage?"
if my love for peter were based on my feelings all of the time, instead of seeing it as a covenant before Him, what would happen?
we would probably end up existing together, not growing, just existing.
there is no perfect peace outside of Him.
Jesus Christ died for me.
days like yesterday prove how unworthy i am to call Him, LORD.
today i awoke to new mercies.
He reminded me of Isaiah 26.
that perfect peace of God, that He told me about, reminded me of my need for Him.
He was near to my broken heart.
He showed me grace.
all those things i'd rather be thinking of than my sin.
so, i refuse to think on my sins of yesterday anymore.
i've decided to repent, to turn from them, and just follow Him.
i'm going to try and love my husband better today.
since all of my works are filthy rags, i'm counting on God for some help.
thankful in advance.

“You will never know how much you believe something until it is a matter of life and death.” “If you think of this world as a place intended simply for our happiness, you find it quite intolerable: think of it as a place of training and correction and it’s not so bad.” – C.S Lewis "God in the Dock"